Shades of Trauma
How a trauma begins.
A zero point, sleeping disorder, deep sad emotions, feeling unwell and unhealthy, reality rejection, tension, surrounded by worries and fears, a piano plays no regrets, a violin says what about the previous days?
This is the exact moment when you realize that a real problem needs to be resolved and when you reject this fact, the pain increases, and the tiny problem turns into a "Trauma" over time.
So, Defining trauma simply means A psychological reaction to a catastrophic occurrence, such as an accident, or a disaster. After an accident, shock, and denial are common emotions. In the long run, reactions can lead to erratic emotions, flashbacks, strained relationships, and even physical discomfort like headaches or nausea.
A memory recall.
Sitting in the same place where you learned how to love, laugh, and even cry from the bottom of your heart after 10 years or more brings the memory back to life. Doubting yourself, and your mind starts playing tricks on you. Asking questions such as; Did I heal? Or it's just an act of denying?
How does a trauma affect you?
Trauma is usually caused by a situation or a specific event in childhood, and if it is not dealt with awareness and positivity, the matter may worsen and may cause an increase in pain feelings, it will also affect the way of communication. In addition to feeling a lack of self-confidence which in turn forces you with no plans to be in an unhealthy relationship as a way of fake healing.
Research has shown that traumatic experiences are associated with both behavioral health and chronic physical health conditions, especially those traumatic events that occur during childhood. Substance use, mental health conditions, and other risky behaviors have been linked with traumatic experiences.
All these different and confusing emotions affect you. and the best solution is to stop and breathe, isolate and meditate, begin writing down ideas, talk less and get to know yourself again.